The Dance

The Web of Life gleaming bright
Displays the desperate beauty of the deep,
Shaking the darkness to its core,
Assailing the vestiges of fear and love,
While Joy howls in its delight.

Many walk the path of fate and fear,
Seldom reaching for the unseen light
That shines in the empty, unchristened void.

I can no longer bear the pain
Of my majestic reckonings,
The madness of beliefs
That were never true.

I must abandon these.

Answering the call to dance,
The cadence of terrifying joy
Annihilates all the pain and need
I have ever known.
My soul laid bare, utterly undone,
Trembling I behold
The fierce passion of the Void,
Where groaning, beauty changes form.
It too, must dance, to be alive.

Country

When I take a general look at our society it disgusts me. To see what we have become as a country. In my opinion America is supposed to be the best place to live in the world. I am not so sure any more. Our government has failed us. They can't even agree on anything any more. The only thing that matters to them is what letter you have R or D. We were all Americans before we were Republican or Democrat. It is of my opinion if you are on the far right or the far left, you have gone to far. George Washington warned us about parties in 1792. He touched on it in his farewell address " I have already intimated to you the danger of parties in the state, with particular reference to the founding of them on geographical discriminations. Let me now take a more comprehensive view, and warn you in the most solemn manner against the baneful effects of the spirit of party, generally." If he only knew how right he was. As Americans we have a duty to our country to not elect these kinda assholes who only care about their party. Now I am not a Republican or a Democrat. I am an American who cares about my country. Our economy is failing. The value of the dollar is dropping faster then ever before. We need people in our government that are going to work together to fix the problem. Not argue about party lines. That's were we come in to play. We need to elect people who are going to work together in Washington, not fight. It is not my job to tell who to vote for. You can figure that out on your own. All I ask is don't vote for just one party. Use your common sense. Both parties have great people in office, and both also have idiots who don't care for where our country is going, as long as it goes toward their goals. So please go out there and vote for the best American to represent you. If you don't vote you not solving anything, but making it worse.

Letting Go

Its been 2 years this day since I heard your voice, but I can still hear it in the back of my mind. So much has happened since you pasted on that rainy September day. To this day I still never go out in the rain. Our love was unbreakable, wich is why letting go has been so hard. Writing this has been a lot harder than I thought. No matter how hard I fight the tears coming down they just keep coming. Everything was planned out for us, and look at us now. A friend told me that the lord only takes the best to sit down in heaven with him. If that is true, I can feel you looking down at me telling me to move on, but its hard. You were my world. I would have put my life before yours, and traded places with you in a heart beat. You completed me in every way. Its like God took a rib from me and made you. I ask myself the same question every night. "Why you, why did he have to take you?" Their is an emptiness in my heart that aches for you, but I know you would want me to move on. By writing this I am hoping to get some closure. Closure to the hardest thing I have ever dealt with in my short life.

There is so much of that I miss. I miss the way you melted in my arms every night, your sense of humor. It was dry at times, but I understood it. I miss the way you smelled. The way you tasted. I guess it was your chemistry. I could go on forever about what I miss about you, but it saddens me to think about that. I know you wouldn't want me grieving like this, but I think I have came a long way. Where do I go from here? Its weird how I always pictured you in my future, and now I am going on without you. How I wish there some way to make the outcome different than it is today, but I can't. That's how I know I have to move on. I wonder if I will ever find another who can fill what you left behind. The awnser is time will tell. Nobody ever said this was going to be easy, but no matter what happens, I will always enjoy all the time we spent together. Who's to say that there is not another person out there who I can love. The world is big, and you would want me to find another. Until we meet again, take care.

In Memory Of

Amber Whited

07-03-1983 to 09-04-2006